Anyways, about other things:P Life has a cruel way of making you realize things doesnt it? grrr. My mom said she would take me to disneyland in feb if im good this month. Do you know how good that would be? DO YOU KNOW? lol. I would get to see jc!! I REALLY hope that this end up working.. but you know, it all depends on me. Im going to try really hard to make it possible, but i dont know if i can. I will try my bestest eva! lol. god, if you only knew the whole situation! cruel, cruel fate!! why must thy be so? twist and pull my heartstrings until not is left but a tangled heap of misunderstanding!<-- My somber attempt at making something sound macabre, yet poetical.

SO yah. i just feel like screaming with happiness and anger at once!! like this.... AHHHHHHFUCKER!
that felt good.

So yes, i might be going to a cradle of filth concert. I dont even really like them, but i figure it would be a really fun show. SO, i might go. Duno. My friend is looking into tickets as we speak.

Im buzzing with energy! too bad i dont hink its positive. im like ZING! WHATCHAZING! like that.